Seasons Greetings Beautiful People,
Wow! the last weekend before Christmas. This time of year is usually a time of reflection for all of us. At this moment I think about where I was at this time last year. I know its been a while, but I definitely couldn’t let this year go without bringing you an inspirational post to ring in the new year.
At the end of every year, I start thinking and planning what I want for the new year, and come up with a hashtag (how I feel at the end of the previous year always sets the tone for the new year). I tagged 2019 #WorkHardPlayHard and I have to be honest and say I worked ALOOOOOOT harder than I played. Although I went on 6 trips (with 2 of those trips being new destinations), I didn’t play as much I planned or would have liked. I worked mega hard, and although it had it’s positives, I learned the hard way the effects of excessive pressure on our mental health and the body.
I have always been a hard worker. My work ethic and determination has always been something that people admire about me, however being a workaholic at times has had its negative effects and I have even experienced alopecia due to it. However, for the first time in my life, this year I experienced work induced anxiety.
I never knew the idea of going to work could cause heart palpitations, I never knew thinking about how much you don’t want to go into work today, but have to because you have responsibilities and dreams to fund could make tears fall out from my eyes. I never knew panic attacks could happen just because I felt like I wasn’t where I needed to be in life, and put immense pressure on myself to work extra hours day after day.
I remember one day feeling my chest get tight and breathing became difficult, and the only thing that could stop what I knew was coming next, was to break down and cry in the middle of the city centre. Just thinking back what I was going through back then, and it feels crazy that it even happened. I knew then that something had to be done, and I had to go to the root of the problem. I had to find not the reason why I was having all these panic attacks (I already knew that), but why was I putting pressure on myself. After all health is wealth, and what would happen if one day my body decided to give up on me. Would all this extra work and pressure be worth it?
So put away trouble from your heart, and put away pain from your body. Because the years when you were a child and the best years of your life are going by fast. – Ecclesiastes 11:10
I realised it was all about the mindset. Nothing was going to stop me from working hard, and believe or not, I actually enjoy it. Even if I was making money in my sleep, I love the idea of doing something I love and reaping benefits from the works of my hands, but what changed was my approach. I am the type of person who is used to achieving new and greater things and accomplishing goals every year my biggest fear was to plateau, I started to compare, measure myself against other people, and even became bitter at one point. BUT…..
Why was I rushing? What race am I running? And what was I chasing? This pressure we speak of to be in a certain place, who was it for? Me? If it truly was for me, and not because society says it’s the right thing to do, then I definitely should not feel the way I do. I should enjoy chasing my goals because they are…MY GOALS!
Once I changed my mindset and began to do things solely for me and make MY GOALS AND DREAMS a priority is when the panic attacks stopped.
Yeah, yeah, I know this sounds to cliché but I kid you not its 1000000 percent the truth.
I don’t want to dwell too much on the negatives, I want this year to end on a positive note for all of us. Due to my #WorkHard mentality not only have I made the most annual revenue in my entire working life, but I also was able to look at my savings and for the first time see 5 figures. FIVE FREAKING FIGURES! For some people that’s chicken change and I pray I am one of those people one day, however, I want to appreciate where I am at because it important not to compare your chapter one to another person’s chapter twenty. Comparison is the stealer of joy and the reason why I was becoming bitter.
I felt like I was buried this year, like my growth was stunted, and I thought the best solution to that to overcompensate by having something to show for it in my bank account. However, guys…..
I wasn’t buried, I was planted.
And what is planted will eventually bloom.
2019 has forced me to acknowledge that God has been so good to me. Sometimes I take my blessings for granted because I want more. However, I have to remember even though I am nowhere where I want to be, I am way better than I have ever been. I’m sitting back to appreciate what I already have while working towards what I want. Now I look to 2020 with so much aspiration and excitement for what I know God is going to do. I already have my #hastag ready too lol.
Also, once I expressed gratitude, I began to enjoy life and #PlayHard. I enjoyed wonderful experiences with friends. I travelled to new countries and even broke my festival virginity.
I didn’t write this to brag about how much money I have in the bank. I wanted to let you all know that your hard work doesn’t go unnoticed. Remember Proverbs 19:21 my loves. You will get there, you will achieve your dreams. You work too hard to fail, and failures are lessons anyway. Lessons to become better. It took years of failed efforts, rejection and heartbreak for me to become who I am today, and some of your role models to be where they are today. Never lose hope!
Dear friend, I hope all is well with you and that you are as healthy in body as you are strong in spirit. – 3 John 1:2
I am wishing you all a very Merry Christmas and Cheers to 2020.
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